the thrill, "it would be so cool"
this is kind of ugly. no, i got this, if i just knuckle down.
or maybe i'll leave it for "more-motivated" me.
...
dust gathers.
...
and just like that, the thing claws at me. my chest aches, thinking about the many times this has happened.
all of my life, i have been searching for the answer to the immensely difficult question: how do you take on a new exciting projects, that feel satisfyingly challenging, but not so difficult that the mere thought of them rip a pit of despair in your stomach?